Are you kidding?

Went and had another ultrasound yesterday and the egg grew to 18 1/2 mm. When she measured it and told me the size - all I could say was "Are you kidding?"

So, we go tomorrow for another IUI at 9:00am. We will find out if we're pregnant on March 2nd - on our way home from Colorado!!!!!

A Good Work...

The verse in the Bible that talks about He who began a good work...will be faithful to continue it until the day of Christ came to my mind today when we got disappointing news from the doctor. The increased my Clomid to 200mg this month and much to our surprise, my body did not react to it like it should have. They cannot explain why it responded at 150mg and not 200mg. I go back again on Wednesday to measure the eggs again. Our prayer is that the doctor will allow us to do Clomid another month. After no response on 200mg (which is the max I can go) makes them believe that my body may never respond like it should.

God reminded me that He is the one that began a good work and HE WILL CONTINUE IT. How amazing is that? We cannot control this situation. If God knows the number of hairs on our head, why should we doubt that he can give us a baby? It's hard to see others get pregnant with no effort and even people who didn't plan on having a baby.

But again, God reminds me that He has a plan for my life. Remember when you were little and you would tell your parents "But so-and-so at school is doing it".? What would they tell you? "Well, I'm not their parent, I'm yours". That's what I feel God telling me. Quit comparing your life and situation to others around you. I am teaching them a lesson just like I'm teaching you. Their outcome is different than yours and your baby has a different plan than theirs.

Prayer Requests:

1) Egg growth on Wednesday
2) Wisdom for the doctor
3) Patience for both of us

We cannot say thank you enough for all your prayers and support. At times I wish nobody knew what was going on so that I didn't get a thousand questions constantly - but then I think...I wouldn't get a thousand prayers either. So again - thank you, thank you.

Looking Ahead

Had our doctor's appointment this morning and we are not pregnant. They are increasing my Clomid to 200mg with the hopes that we can get a good egg(s) on day 13. In the past, it's taken a couple more days to get a mature egg.

Looking ahead to important upcoming dates:

February 12th - Day 13 - pray for a mature 18mm egg!
February 14th - Next IUI if egg is mature
February 23rd - LEAVING FOR SKI TRIP!!!!!!
February 28th - Find out if we're pregnant in Colorado

As always, we'll keep you updated. Thank you for all your prayers.

Early Prediction

My early prediction is in on baby Sasser....No baby this time! Again, it's just a prediction, I have no concrete evidence to prove my theory. Still 3 more days until we find out for sure but my gut feeling is that we won't have an October baby.

What's the importance of an October baby? Glad you asked: Well, Ben's mom doesn't like October because on October 31st, 1999 her mom died. On October 28th, 2004, her husband died - which if you haven't read the baby name entry, is why we'll name the baby Kevin if it's a boy : ) So...to change her mind about the month of October, I really wanted our first baby to be born in October and make it a month she looks forward to. (Sorry if I made you cry, Gail!!!!)

Going with that thought, we still want the baby born in a significant month. November is George's birthday month - and that would be great. December is my dad's birthday month. Nothing happens in January - our luck that's the month the baby will be born! February is Ben's birthday month and March is my mom's birthday month.

I promise to post our results - good news or not - Wednesday morning!

T minus 7 days...and counting

One more week to go before we find out if we're pregnant! So can't believe we've made it this far. Got to talk to a lot of girls at church tonight that went through the exact same thing we're going through. It's great being able to talk about it with someone else who truly understands. Most people just listen (which is great) but will never know how we really have felt the past couple of years.

Still planning on how we'll tell our family that we're pregnant. I don't want to tell anyone over the phone but I can't convince anyone of my "plan". My mother-in-law says she doesn't care - she wants a phone call when we leave the appointment. My parents want to be told at the same time in the same room so we can hug and cry together. My luck, we'll find out and will call everyone at one time and yell the news! Either way...it'll be exciting!!!!!

In God's Hands

We had our procedure yesterday, despite the terrible weather we had. It took us an hour to get there but we made it! The procedure took about an hour from start to finish. We go back on Jan 31st to see if we're pregnant!! YEAH!

Thank you again for all your prayers! I know there are a lot of people out there praying for us that don't even know us. We can feel those prayers every day as God reminds us that He's still leading us. Continue to pray - we're not finished yet! And then continue to pray more if we get pregnant...we'll really need it then!

18.85mm

Yep..that's the size of our one egg! We made it!!!!! We go back Wednesday morning at 9:00am. Dr Johns believes in Clomid, only when it's followed up by a procedure called Intra-uterine insemination (IUI). Don't know what it is? Learn more at www.webmd.com.

We are very excited and can't wait to see what God has in store for us next. We have about a 40% chance of getting pregnant from our first procedure. No too bad.

More to come after Wednesday!